Well uhm... Yes, I have disappeared once again. I don't think I've been online here for 2 weeks now or maybe more. School kept me busy and will still keep me busy so... As sad as it is...

GOING ON A LONG HIATUS!!!!

Well... At least until Christmas Break starts. I'll still write though but I don't think I'll be able to post them yet. So well... You guys will be waiting for a loooooooonnnnnnngggggg update because I won't be here... T_______________________T As sad as it is... ;_________;

I'll make loads of update when I get back. PROMISE. PINKY SWEAR. And when I said, I won't break it. :D Please be patient and wait for me. I'll do my best in school to get high grades and write fics during free times and upload lots here when I get back.

FRIENDS, READERS, TWINNIE!!!! I'LL MISS YOU GUYS!!!!! T_T

Message me anytime! I'll reply once I read it. :)

PLEASE JUST KILL ME NOW!!!!

With all the things that been happening with DBSK... I don't know how much I can take!!! I can't stand seeing one of my favorite boy groups of all time facing the brink of disbandment! Whatever happened to OT5?! What about 5 - 1 = 0? What happened to being a family? What happened to supporting each other?

I'm seriously losing my mind!!!! Everything is just too much to take!!!! I don't know who or what to believe!!!!!! Everything is just breaking my heart into pieces? Are they just going to end their friendship like this? I feel so burdened and it's hard to breathe! I can't even believe that this is real!!!! Is it going to end like this? All those years of hard work... All those years of spending time together... What about continuing to promote as DBSK? Was that all a lie? What's going to happen now?

F*cked! I can't believe this... The contract was like that of a slave so I can't blame JaeChunSu for suing... Isn't that the reason why other groups left as well? So why... Why HoMin? What's with taking sides?

Everything is just too much to take... This just breaks my heart...

Gosh... I swear everything is so f*cked up!!!! Make it stop!!!! I want the old K-Pop back! I want it back from when everything is peaceful and beautiful! I want DBSK back... When all they do is live their dream... To sing and dance... To make their fans happy and to make their family proud... When it's 5 + 1 = DBSK <3 Cassiopeia... Can't we go back to that? Is this really the end? Is it really JaeChunSu vs. HoMin + SM?

Just watching this vids makes me cry so much...

Proud



Picture of You



What will happen now? Please tell me... Cause I don't know what to do anymore... Everything just makes me cry... Should I still keep the faith?

*Going to watch all DBSK Vids she can find*

Title: Close-Open
Author: ai_sumairu
Chapters: 19/?
Pairings: KiSung, HenWook, EunHae, SiHan, HanChul, KyuMin, KangTeuk, YeWook & EunMin friendship.
Genre: Romance, Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Warning: M-Preg but it's not noticeable.
Summary: Sungmin decided to confess to Kyuhyun...
Author's Note: Because of everyone's comments, I present you with a long chapter update!!! ^0^ Thank you so much for the love and the comments and for reading my fic! I really appreciate it. This chapter is divided into 2 parts. The link is available under the cut.

Past Chapters: (1)(2)(3)(4)(5)(6)(7a)(7b)(8)(9)(10)(11)(12)(13)(14)(15)(16)(17)(18)


( “Down with Kyuhyun!!!” )

Title: Close-Open
Author: ai_sumairu
Chapters: 19/?
Pairings: KiSung, HenWook, EunHae, SiHan, HanChul, KyuMin, KangTeuk, YeWook & EunMin friendship.
Genre: Romance, Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Warning: M-Preg but it's not noticeable.
Summary: Sungmin decided to confess to Kyuhyun...
Author's Note: Because of everyone's comments, I present you with a long chapter update!!! ^0^ Thank you so much for the love and the comments and for reading my fic! I really appreciate it. This chapter is divided into 2 parts. The link is available under the cut.

Past Chapters: (1)(2)(3)(4)(5)(6)(7a)(7b)(8)(9)(10)(11)(12)(13)(14)(15)(16)(17)(18)

( Chapter 19B )

Title: Close-Open
Author: ai_sumairu
Chapters: 18/?
Pairings: KiSung, HenWook, EunHae, SiHan, HanChul, KyuMin, KangTeuk, YeWook & EunMin friendship.
Genre: Romance, Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Warning: M-Preg but it's not noticeable.
Summary: Another heart is broken...
Author's Note: Sorry if I haven't been updating!!!! T^T I know a lot of my readers has been waiting. Well, the long wait is over! Here's another chapter for you guys to read and hopefully enjoy! :) I'm really sorry, laziness has been my sickness this past few days. Please do read and comment!

Past Chapters: (1)(2)(3)(4)(5)(6)(7a)(7b)(8)(9)(10)(11)(12)(13)(14)(15)(16)(17)

( “I still smell something fishy!” Heechul exclaimed )

Title: Things They Hate
Author: ai_sumairu
Pairings: Implied KangTeuk.
Characters: Kangin (Main), A mention of Jaejoong (DBSK)
Genre:Dunno...
Rating: Anyone can read? (--)
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Summary: Kangin's alone in the dorms and he began to reflect on himself.
Author's Note: Because I've been depressed with Kangin and all the issues he's been involved with. Don't forget to leave comments! :)

( Things that makes others hate me... )

Title: Heechul's Plan
Author: ai_sumairu
Chapters: 1/?
Pairings: QMi/KyuMi, HeeMi, Implied KyuMin (Only bits of it)
Genre: Romance/Friendship
Rating: Uhm... Tbh, I dunno how to rate this. (--)'
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Summary: Heechul only wanted to make Kyuhyun admit that he's head over heels in love with Zhou Mi. He came up with a plan... But what if it didn't work out like he intended it to be? But what if, Zhou Mi started falling for him and he too started to fall for Zhou Mi? What about Kyuhyun?
Author's Note: Because I haven't updated my fics, I present a new one. I'll try to update everything once Finals are over and semestral break has started. I'll try to update everyday then so please anticipate it. :) This is a side-story to the fic How To Say I Miss You. Hope you guys will like this! :D Please don't forget to read and comment! ^-^
( Seasoning… How about trying it… with me... )

Title: Waiting
Author: ai_sumairu
Pairings: HenWook
Genre: Angst, AU
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Author's Note: This is what happens when you find out that the guy you like will be going back to Korea to fulfill his military service. :( Hope you'll read and comment.

( There was this news… this news that broke my heart... )

Here are some doodles I did during class when our teacher wasn't present...

I miss Jay... I seriously do... T__________________T





2PM is just isn't the same anymore... I want him back... T____________________T

Title: Losing Weight
Author: ai_sumairu 
Pairings: ShinMin
Genre: Romance/Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Author's Note: Because I haven't updated my fics, I present a oneshot. Been so busy in school... :( Please do read and comment! It makes me happy! ^0^

This is the ShinMin part in the fic How To Say I Miss You.
( I need to lose weight... )

YESH!!!! Finally!!! I have a facebook! ^0^ XD LOL! Just wanna share. :)

Just watched the MV and listened to the song "Picture of You" by DBSK.



The song is beautiful as well as the MV. It made me tear up when I saw them all together again. Having fun like they used to, like they don't even have a care in the world. Their picture taking at 2:22 made me cry so badly.

To my fellow Cassies out there, please continue supporting them! Let's keep on believing! Always keep the Faith! Our boys are having a hard time right now. Let's show them our support. Let's make them feel that they're not alone in this, that we're here for them no matter what.

Dong Bang Shin Ki (Gods of the East)
*U-Know Yunho
*Hero Jaejoong
*Xiah Junsu
*Micky Yoochun
*Max Changmin

DBSK <3 Cassiopeia.

Title: Waiting Hearts
Author: ai_sumairu 
Chapter: 4/?
Pairings: Hints at QMi and HenWook (Will appear in later chapters)
Genre: Romance & Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Author's Note: It's been so long since I've updated this. Final day of midterm for today. Please do read and don't forget to comment! :D

Past Chapters: (1)(2)(3)

( Do you think they’ll miss us... )

Last August 1, 2009, the death of President Corazon "Cory" Aquino greeted us. She was announced dead at 3:18 am by his son, Noynoy Aquino. She died at the age of 76 because of Stage 4 Colon Cancer. The Philippines and it's people, the Filipinos, has started to grieve. Today, August 5, 2009, is the people's final farewell to a great leader. She will be buried today and the people will say their final goodbye to a great person and a great leader.



The Philippines right now are either wearing yellow clothes, waving yellow balloons or wearing a yellow ribbon to show their support to the late President. Whether it stays sunny or it rains, the people are still standing outside the cemetery to see her one last time.

The Philippines and it's people have lost a great leader, a friend, a protector, a supporter and a mother. She was the one who brought democracy to our country. The person who made Filipinos, free men. She was the First Woman President of the Philippines. The wife of a great senator, Ninoy Aquino, who also fought for democracy and died to free the Filipino People. She is the Mother of the Filipino People and the Philippine Democracy. A symbol of freedom. A person greatly love by all. She was the one who started the peaceful revolution filled with songs and prayers.

During her term, the Philippines greatly flourished and was known by all. She was featured in Time Magazine as the Woman of the Year, also her youngest daughter, Kris Aquino, who was featured in the same magazine when she was campaigning for her Dad, Ninoy Aquino. Wherever President Cory goes and gives her speech, they always give her a standing ovation. She ruled in peace and did her best to aid her people. Even after her Presidential Term, she continued her duty as a President. Supporting the people through their endeavors of fighting for their rights as citizens of the country. She helped a lot of people and is widely respected by all.

Everyone is grieving and thousands and thousands of people are paying their tribute to her and are saying their final goodbyes. Her birthday, January 25, will be considered as Cory Aquino day. The month of August is considered as a month of grieving. She will be given 21 gun salute as a sign of respect, all by the military leaders and soldiers present during her Presidential terms. The Filipinos unite and all together prayed for her and her family. The same thing happened during her husband's death. Indeed, the Aquino Couple are great leaders that is loved by all Filipinos.

I would like to share the song and the poem the President's Cory's husband, Senator Ninoy Aquino wrote and made for her for their 19th Wedding Anniversary. It was played during the time where her documentary was played in Television to relive the moments when she was still alive. It's a very touching song and poem full of love and passion.

Title: I Fell In Love With The Same Woman Three Times
Writer: Senator Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino
Composer: Jose Mari Chan



This is the entire poem:

I have fallen in love
With the same woman three times
In a day spanning nineteen years
Of tearful joys and joyful tears
I loved her first when she was young
Enchanting, brilliant, middle-strung
Vibrant, fragrant, eternally new
Cool, invigorating as the morning dew.
Desperate, she shared, quieted my despairs
Hopeful, she fanned the fires of my hopes
Lavished me with days of bliss and peace,
Endless, perpetual days of fond memories.
She is my hope; I do not wish to realize
Hence my hope; forever green, eternal prize
My life transcending life, my ultimate quest
Dream of my life for whom Ill spare no rest.

I fell in love again
With the same woman the second time
When first she bore her child and mine
The first fruit of our union and our love.
The pains and anguish of motherhood she braved
Loved her children, their love she deservedly craved
Times were she hung on the very brink of death,
Unflinchingly fulfilling her mission to procreate.
In politics I plunged, she was always by my side,
Steadfast, uncomplaining, helping to turn the tide,
Amidst hardship, her rare courage would not relent
She was my secret weapon, the source of my strength.
The world was my concern, our home her domain,
The people mine, the children hers to maintain,
So it was in those eighteen years and a day
Till I was detained, forced in prison to stay.

Suddenly she became our sole support
Wellspring of hope, source of comfort
On her shoulders fell the burden of life
She emerged our captain in the sea of strife.

I fell in love again
With the same woman the third time
Looming from the battle, undaunted, unafraid,
Calm composed, she is Gods lovely maid.
It has been a year of many disappointments
Endless dark nights, long days of sad lament,
Of grave doubts, frustrations, bitter desolations,
Of privations, untold indignities, humiliations.

Dreams became nightmares; hopes, despair.
Rally to freedoms call, no one will dare.
Future is obscured, life has lost its meaning,
The tunnel is long, were only at the beginning.

Leaders I admired, whose advice I sought
Became fallen idols, their souls were bought,
Their conscience they bartered for soft convenience,
Due to despicable cowardice, they've lost their patience.

Leaders became dealers, begging for part of the spoils,
Forgetting the value, the essence of the hottest toil,
Paralyzed be fear, they joined the amoral dictator,
Defending, waving the bloody flag of the new oppressor.

The pillars of society became the props of tyranny,
Be realistic, they urged, if not for safety, for money.
It is useless to resist, the tyrant is too strong,
Yet aware, with their help the tyranny will prolong.

Mother Pilipinas weeps, her noble sons are gone,
Her land of the morning, is now of the setting sun,
Back to her dungeon in chains shes been returned;
For all her sacrifices, this is what she earned.

The night is cold and dark, there are no stars,
Our prisons are full, our souls wrinkled with scars,
Afflicted, persecuted, struck down but not crushed,
How soon will this blight be erased by Allah's brush?

My only escape is to cling to the woman of my dreams
Who gave me a life full of love, a love full of life,
She is my urge to live, my sole motivation to survive,
She taught me not only to dream, but to make dreams alive.

Fight on! She says: Let not the guiltless ghost depart.
Your pains, our people know are caused by a thousand darts,
But be assuaged, remember the Filipino, his story, his past,
Soon, very soon, the tyrant will choke in his greedy power lust!



President Corazon "Cory" Aquino (1933 - 2009), may you rest in peace with the Lord and your beloved husband, Senator Benigno "Ninoy" Aquino. You will be greatly missed and will stay forever in our hearts. You would never be forgotten. Please watch over us, your people, alongside your husband, Senator Ninoy.

Got tagged bytsehqui 

Firstly: If you've been tagged, you must write your answers in your own LJ and replace any question that you dislike with a new, original question.

Secondly: Tag eight people. Don't refuse to do that. Don't tag who tagged you.

Who sleeps in bed next to you?
→ A big teddy bear, I named Yoshi and 3 soft pillows that I managed to kick off my bed when I sleep. X)

Have you ever lied to a teacher to get out of a deadline?
→ Nope, but I did lie on why I was absent in her class. :P

What kind of magazines do you read?
→ Hmm... I dunno... Different kinds... Like for fashion, music, gadgets... stuff like that.

What's your occupation?
→ 2nd Year Collegiate Student.

What's really creepy?
→ My stalker. x_x

Who is your celebrity crush?
→ Many to mention. XD

What are you listening to right now?
→ Holding Back The Tears by DBSK. (When will they come back?! T^T)

What food could you eat every day for weeks and not get sick of?
→ Crispy Chicken Burger in Mcdonalds!!! ^0^

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
→ LJ, My yahoo mail... Feeling lazy to visit others.

What was the last thing you bought?
→ A black bag with Tom & Jerry design. (Hey, it's cute! XD)

What was the cutest thing you've seen today?
→ Nothing as of the moment. I just woke up. :P

Does the weather affect your mood?
→ Not really... It's a good day. It isn't too hot or too cold. Just right. :)

What is your zodiac sign?
→ Taurus/Monkey (Hyukkie!!! XP)

Do you want to learn another language?
→ Yes. I want to speak them fluently. I'm currently learning right now.

5 things you can't live without
→ Money, Music, Food, Necessary necessities and Friends & Family.

Do you have any siblings?
→ Yup! A younger sister and a younger brother.

What's something you'd like to say to someone right now?
→ Uhm... Hi? *waves*

What are you looking forward to?
→ Many to mention. :P

Say something to the person who tagged you
→ Thanks, hon! I did want to answer this! XD

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Title: Close-Open
Author: ai_sumairu 
Chapters: 17/?
Pairings: KiSung, HenWook, EunHae, SiHan, HanChul, KyuMin, KangTeuk, YeWook & EunMin friendship.
Genre: Romance, Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Warning: M-Preg but it's not noticeable.
Author's Note: Finally!!!! My long hiatus because of school is over!!! ^0^ Even though I still have midterms, I'm not as busy as before. Here's the chapter you've been waiting for! Hope you guys didn't forget this! Miss you all!!! Don't forget to comment! :D

Past Chapters: (1)(2)(3)(4)(5)(6)(7a)(7b)(8)(9)(10)(11)(12)(13)(14)(15)(16)


( Donghae-hyung stop nudging me before I file a harassment case against you... )

Hi guys!

Sorry for always disappearing without a warning. Everything is really hectic in my life right now. Got lots of problems not only in school, at home, with the internet and of course with myself. I've been really stress and there's not much time to sleep as well as be online with studying and going to school 6 days a week from 7 up to 5 and a job right after said school time up to 8 and sometimes 9. No time to sleep that much and rest. Basically, I think I've become a walking zombie. Got so many things to do. As much as I would love to update, I simply can't right now. Maybe, when things get a bit easier. I'm sorry for disappearing like this and not updating.

To my readers, please wait for me! I'll definitely update my fics. Just... Not right now. But I'll definitely continue the fics and make new ones. I'll be going for a mini-hiatus (if one can call that as that).

To my friends, I'm really going now!!! T^T I didn't see this coming but it's been really stressful and there's not much time to go online so I'll be gone for a while. Might take longer than necessary. I'll miss you guys and please wait for me!!! Hope you guys won't forget me!!!! TT^TT I'll miss you all!!!!

*hugs and kisses to everyone out there*

Title: Waiting Hearts
Author: ai_sumairu 
Chapter: 3/?
Pairings: Hints at QMi and HenWook (Will appear in later chapters)
Genre: Romance & Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Author's Note: It's been so long since I've updated this. I'm sorry I got lazy!!! TT^TT But please do read and don't forget to comment! :D

Past Chapters: (1)(2)

( I guess… I’ve missed you... )

Title: Close-Open
Author: ai_sumairu 
Chapters: 16/?
Pairings: KiSung, HenWook, EunHae, SiHan, HanChul, KyuMin, KangTeuk, YeWook & EunMin friendship.
Genre: Romance, Friendship
Disclaimer: I own the story.
Warning: M-Preg but it's not noticeable.
Author's Note: After getting sick, I got injured. Bad luck I supposed. *sigh* But I'm better now so everything's okay. This chapter is focused on KiSung but there's other couples too. Oh and a shocking revelation. Read if you wanna know! XD Don't forget to comment! :D

Past Chapters: (1)(2)(3)(4)(5)(6)(7a)(7b)(8)(9)(10)(11)(12)(13)(14)(15)


( Hey Bummie… If you ever have kids, what will you name them... )